I am beautiful.

“How pompous!”

You’re thinking that right now aren’t you?

“She’s just an attention seeker.”

Yup, thought so.

Well, folks, I gotta tell you a secret. I’m beautiful. I look perfect. I’m gorgeous even. Hm… if you’re like me, you’re starting to get reeeeally uncomfortable right about, well, when you read the title. Isn’t that strange? That is strange, right? How declaring my own greatness is repelling? I hate to admit it but this post feels risky even to write. How dare I claim this gorgeousness? And on top of that declare it on the web?

Would it help if I was a model or an actress? Would it be okay to claim my brilliance if I had an Ivy League degree?

Too often I hear those I love berate themselves for not being good enough (anything from looks to capabilities).  The oddest part is I know models and Harvard grads. And they too find faults in their looks and their brains, just as often as the rest of us! I’m beautiful because I’m alive. And there is no other Natanya Haviva Green on the planet. How incredibly rare to know one! And even rarer still to be one!! The rarest of the rare are treated with the utmost reverence (think precious metals, flowers, animals, cars) so how is it that the most precious life of all, your own, you consider even the tiniest bit unworthy? Seriously consider the implications. If you can’t tell already, I’m sick of the inadequacy game. I don’t need to be a Glamour cover model to know that my perfect-for-pinchin’ cheeks, my ethnicity-obscuring-squinty-eyes, and my “bite-sized” height make me beautiful. Freckles and all.

You’re beautiful too. And skilled. And special. Why this is so awkward to admit clearly comes from our cultural conditioning and though it would fascinate me to learn the whys and hows of our socialization what is really of interest to me is where do we go from here. If we are to live the lives of our dreams I expect we first need to feel worthy of such success. What better way to feel worthy than to begin to accept our inner and outer beauty. Marianne Williamson’s quote below is often used for just such purposes.

The quote became a sensation because it resonated deeply across the globe. There is something within us desiring, asking, waiting to be seen. That part of us is a light so bright we scare ourselves with it’s intensity. Stop playing small. Stand up for your worth. Speak up for your empowerment. You are the only thing holding you back.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

– from A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles

I’m great. You’re great. What if it was that easy?

Love,

Natanya

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